My One is leaving for 6 months
For the better
Find an inner peace for Joel
Balance
I want to stick it out
No running this time

I have been going to meetings to deal with my confusion. It has helped a little, but I still find my self thinking about her a lot. I go through phases through the day. In early morning, I feel great, Like I can take on the world. By midday, my heart starts to harden again, like it is all starting over again. The pain of not knowing what might happen. I know she cares, but I always second guess myself about our relationship. I just need a little assurance from her at times. Even though she tells me she loves me all the time, and wants me to be there for her during her time away... my spirits are down, and I have to find a way to inner peace, confidence, compassion, and then love